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07.26.2017
You are getting complacent. But you are wrong.

Though I have to admit, I'm a bit stumped this time because half of it is because of trust in other people, and the other half is trust in myself. If I say the solution is to stop trusting so much, that... Doesn't seem quite right.

But I do have to remember. "You are nothing special." I thought I'd had this lesson ingrained in me, but it looks like I've managed to distort it.

Stop pitying and sheltering yourself. And stop denying it, too.

Remember the reason why you are who you are today.

Do not give complacency a permanent residence.

Before, you needed encouragement. But now, you need to be kicked down.

Stop being selfish. So you even remember what it means to be humble?

“I am not a product of my circumstances. I am a product of my decisions."

"Endure the unbearable, and bear it."

These used to resonate with you so much. When did you forget?

"I don't know what it is about painting myself in a good light that makes me so uncomfortable I'd rather there be misconceptions. I feel allergic to positive reactions."

You wrote this yourself, yet you can't even remember the feeling from that time.

"Do not bend. Do not break."

Whatever happened to this?

I didn't even read that far back.

What have you done to yourself? You want to be a good person, but you were a better person when you were at your most trying times. Now that things have gotten easier, you let yourself fucking go. What the fuck did you do to yourself. A good person? You think a few donations will cut it? Not being able to help wanting to but it to assist people? Basically, putting your money and actions where your mouth is? Sure, it's not bad. But where is your mindset anymore? Where is your heart?

Maybe you are better off hating yourself afterall, because at least then you aren't that which you hate.

Get your ass fucking together.
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09.20.2016
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